I'm not ready for more leadership

I've always viewed my self as someone who could lead and do it well. If I were to brag, I would tell you about record revenues for the Clayton Radio Station for 14 months straight and 20 of the past 24 months. I would also tell you about my days in Greenwood, SC when I was doing news and I got a comment from a listener that ever since I started doing news in Greenwood, so did the local paper. We could even go as far back to my days on the board of directors of the MFA, when they had record numbers for membership and sales. I headed up the sales for the MFA and was VP of the organization. But I'm not here to brag.

The Rabun County Chamber of Commerce has asked that I be chairman in 2006. My name is also being tossed around to be the chairman of the trustees at my church. And the March of Dimes efforts in Rabun County have already approached me about being on their board of directors.

I don't mind playing a role in helping groups organize or playing a role in keeping things like our chamber up and running. But I tend to have a few things that work against me that aren't always clear to others. One of those things is my inability to get organized for efforts outside of my job at the radio station and my business I run from home. And my wife will tell you I'm still not that organized in those efforts. Maybe that's because without her help, I'd be in one heck of a mess.

Another thing that would not bode well is I seem to have much different views about how things are, and how they should be from the majority. I don't know if that's because I'm in radio and those of us in radio tend to have big egos or is it because I've been a part of committees, chambers, and clubs in almost every place I've lived and I have seen things that work well and things that don't. And when most people that volunteer or get roped into these roles on boards don't have the same kind experience I do, I tend to sometimes feel that they just don't know what they're talking about. And when I get to feeling this way, I will sometimes speak up and share my point of view and I'm not known for being very tactful and that can hurt feelings...and that is never my intention.

So I'll have to meditate on these requests to lead various organizations to see where I am lead to lead and to see where I'm best stepping aside and letting someone else lead.

AJ